child of weakness.

I’ve been thinking a lot lately about what Jesus said.  Sometimes I think I get a little too comfortable with what I think Jesus taught and I don’t take much time to really see what he said point blank. Sometimes I am like this:

A friend shared a story that Francis Chan (I think) told.  He was thinking about becoming a soldier until he saw a commercial on TV about it.  He thought, “I don’t like running and I don’t like push ups.” If he would have gone to the recruiting center asking, “I want to join but can I only do a little bit of running and not as many push ups?”  They would have laughed him right out of there.  It seems that we treat Jesus’ teachings in the same way.  I do.

Why am I so afraid to believe Jesus’ Truths?  Like I am loved.  That’s one of the hardest for me to wrap my mind around.  I’m noticing it more and more just by the things I think and things that I say against myself.  I am my hardest critic and probably my worst enemy.

Now that I am working in the church, I’ve fallen into the trap that I’m supposed to have it all together.  Man is that dangerous thinking. If you think that, beware, you are going to encounter a very ugly side of yourself.  Your most painful insecurities will surface and you will start to believe a lot of lies about yourself and others.  I’ve allowed being around married people all the time to get to me and I began thinking that I am severly going to let LifePointe down.  When you let stuff like that get into your head and stay there, it’ll suck the life out of you real quick.

The beautiful thing is God won’t stand for that kind of thinking.  He isn’t forceful about getting the lies out of you, but gentle and patient. When I found myself getting into that dark place I heard Jesus whispering, “get to know me.”  He wanted me to re-read the Bible and remind myself of who he really is and to discover things about him and his teachings that I never realized before.  By doing that I started seeing parts of my thought process that were tripping me up and it also challenged me to evaluate what teachings I have incorporated into my life and what needs work.

I hear the Savior say,
“Thy strength indeed is small.
Child of weakness, watch and pray,
Find in Me thine all in all.
’Cause Jesus paid it all,
All to Him I owe.
Sin had left a crimson stain,
He washed it white as snow.
Lord, now indeed I find
Thy pow’r and Thine alone,
Can change the leper’s spots,
And melt the heart of stone
And when before the throne
I stand in Him complete,
Jesus died my soul to save
my lips shall still repeat
Oh, praise the One who paid my debt,
And raised this life up from the dead.

I’m going to start a series of posts on what I’m learning as I “get to know Him”. I’d love to hear ways Jesus has turned your thinking upside down!

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